Geronimo

There’s this thing that happens as we get older. The doors start to close. The things we once thought might be possible, the people we have known, or worse, the people we have loved, start to fall away from us. In many ways, life begins a cascade of irrevocable changes and shifts that make us…

Wrecked

I honestly wasn’t sure I was going to make it through today’s workout. If it hadn’t been a collective effort- a workout where we all contributed to completing the total number of reps on the board- I think I would have quit. But honestly, pride and the desperation to avoid the shame of dropping out…

Mess

I love my messy house. There are baby toys strewn at odd angles around the living room floor. There is a white wig on the chair. A pair of small, silver shoes is perched on the hutch in the kitchen. Every countertop is littered with plates and food and toys and findings from a recent…

Show Up Selfie

A picture a day (or however frequent I can keep this going) for each day I work out. Today, it was unlikely to happen. I’m tired from the holidays. I had an early meeting. I had a lot of work to do. My body hurts. It is dark and cold and snowing. I had plenty…

Spin

Okay boys and girls, I have a BIG announcement. That might be an over exaggeration, but it feels HUGE to me. Brace yourselves… I just went to, and completed, my first spin class in years! (Imagine a kazoo announcing this momentous achievement and a small handful of confetti being apathetically tossed in the air.) Me,…

70.3

It’s been a minute since I’ve shared. Not because I don’t want to, but because I’ve been doing ordinary things in a fairly uneventful life. You know, like climbing three flights of stairs at a play over the weekend and having an attendant ask if I’m all right. Umm, no. I’m not all right. This…

Lonesome

The thing about cancer is that it is very isolating. At least, for me it is. When I find myself sitting in a waiting room alone trying to read the expression on my doctor’s face, and even though I am so very loved, I still feel alone. The weight of what could be and what…

Bigger Than This

I did it. I completed a week of surfing and growth in Hawaii. If you had told me all the amazing physical accomplishments I would tick off this week, I wouldn’t have believed you. But here I am, living proof that we are only as strong as we let ourselves believe. I’ve let myself believe…

Day 1

I want to share a bit about my adventure in Maui since I received so much help in making this dream come true. Last week, I wasn’t even sure I was going to come. Then I thought about all the helping hands that made this possible, and it was clear backing out wasn’t an option….

This Is Me

Oh hey there. Here I am again, facing something big and scary and new. This time, you helped me get here. Let me tell you about it. I’m going surfing in Maui with other cancer survivors. Before you think to yourself, “That’s not scary, what is she droning on about?” try to see it my…