Nighttime

This therapy thing is kicking my butt. It feels like the lid was pried off and now the toxic sludge I had oh-so-carefully kept locked down is leaking out everywhere. It feels heavy and messy and chaotic. Without purposefully thinking about it, this is probably why I hadn’t started this process before. When I chose…

The Desk

I did something this weekend. I rearranged my entire office to make room for the three new people who are joining our team over the next few weeks. Three. Yikes. I’m just as surprised as anyone that three amazing people came into my life at the same time. But when the doors open, I firmly…

With my word of the year being “heal” I’m spending time investing in myself both physically and emotionally. It’s already been quite a ride. I started counseling two weeks ago. This week was my second appointment and even though I was afraid, I went anyway. I feel like it’s already making big changes in my…

The Bullshit of Zen

True to my promise to myself that this year would be about healing, I took two big steps toward my goal. I worked out for the first time in several months, a task that required a lot of bravery and a bit of patience with myself. I also went to my first counseling appointment in…

Enough IS Enough

I’m learning to say “enough” this year. I’m envious of all the people reading these fabulous books already in 2020. Reading lists and reading goals abound on social media. If I don’t check myself, I feel like a slacker. I bit off a lot this year and I know it is going to push me…

Radical Self Care

I didn’t know what I wanted to talk about and I didn’t know how to talk about what I was feeling. Here it is in a nutshell: I’ve been stressed, physically exhausted, and largely depressed.

The Legacy of Love

Three years ago I put a call out to the universe. I was struggling. The cancer saga was wearing on and on, and my health and finances were circling the drain. Everything was heavy. Our family and precious little girls were walking into the hardest days of our lives. Everything was hard, everything hurt, and…

The Indomitable Spirit of Jeff Civillico

Tom and I attended the Helena Chamber’s Big Night Out last night. I was tired after a full day of work and casually told Tom I would rather be punched in the face than find the energy to go to the event. It would hurt less and wouldn’t last so long, I reasoned out loud….

I See Her Everywhere

It has been several weeks since the memorial of my friend. The woman who was like a mother to me. A lovely soul I think about every day, if not several times a day. I’ll be doing something insignificant and a memory will come to me. I think of her in the kitchen, doing the…

The Vulnerable Leap

I went to the event I was scared to go to. I spoke honestly about my fears and concerns. I talked about this different brain I have. I surprised myself by talking about how my heart had changed, too. Somehow, I have been incredibly and deeply blessed in my life. The amazing souls in the…