Helpers

There are helpers everywhere. There are people who show up with cards (thank you Charlotte), and food (thank you Erin), and copious amounts of texts (thank you Jessie). There are people who look around and see what needs to be done. They roll up their sleeves and they get to work. How beautiful is that?…

Legacy

The kindest, most loving and loyal thing I can do for you, my sweet, is to become the best version of myself possible. It’s not perfection, no. It is a commitment to learn from the hurt, grow from the pain, and rejoice in the good times. To live a full life, soaked in dreams and…

On Grief

I almost started to write that grieving stinks. I meant to imply something negative about how grieving feels. But therein lies the difference. Grieving is uncomfortable. It is definitely painful. But it is not, in itself, bad. It is important that in this time, just as in times of joy, I lean in to the…

Sun Kissed

They say human tears have different compositions depending on why the person is shedding them. This just confirms something I already know; all hurt is unique. This hurt doesn’t feel like anything that came before it. It’s such a slicing finality. My ears ring and my chest vibrates in the sudden cacophony of silence. I…

Words Fail

Hi sweet friend. I need you to know that I love you. I love you so very much. Can you hear me? I’m calling for you. I can’t quite feel you yet even though I am straining to hold on to every piece of you, like a faint melody lulling in the distance. My heart…

Parenting Through Uncertain Times

As if the job weren’t hard enough already, we now get the added delight of parenting through a pandemic. Schools are closed, play dates are cancelled, daycare is done. It just us staring down the barrel of a too much and too little scenario all at once. The world continues to turn however unjustly it…

Let That S*^t Go

You would probably be surprised to know that I struggle mightily with self-esteem. I didn’t really understand this about myself before I started counseling, but now I know that feelings of worthiness and self-love do not come naturally for me. It is a complex issue rooted in deep in my heart, and it’s been there…

The Desk

I did something this weekend. I rearranged my entire office to make room for the three new people who are joining our team over the next few weeks. Three. Yikes. I’m just as surprised as anyone that three amazing people came into my life at the same time. But when the doors open, I firmly…

With my word of the year being “heal” I’m spending time investing in myself both physically and emotionally. It’s already been quite a ride. I started counseling two weeks ago. This week was my second appointment and even though I was afraid, I went anyway. I feel like it’s already making big changes in my…

The Bullshit of Zen

True to my promise to myself that this year would be about healing, I took two big steps toward my goal. I worked out for the first time in several months, a task that required a lot of bravery and a bit of patience with myself. I also went to my first counseling appointment in…