The Challenge

I’m so angry I could cry. I just finished a 6-week nutrition challenge. In that time, I worked by butt off with eating things that either had eyes or grew from the ground (think super clean, whole foods). I drank a gallon of water daily. I tracked everything I ate and hit my macros within…

Hot and Heavy

It is super hot facing the sun on a cloudless day in Bozeman. I’m sitting on the sidelines watching Elle warm up before her game. As I staked out a spot to sit among the open fields there is no shade for half a mile in either direction. Within minutes I’m regretting my decision to…

The Inner Critic and the Open Heart

I stopped writing for a moment. I think I let something get into my head. I let myself believe that my words weren’t worth sharing. Every creative, every human, struggles with the notion that their work, or who they are, is just not good enough. I step away from writing when I fail to make…

What Dreams May Come

When I was sick, I begged for answers. I needed my pain to have meaning. I needed to know I was living for a reason. I knew then, and I know now, that the life I was living was incomplete. I had failed to focus on what brought me joy. I had failed to spend…

I Am Worthy

I have worked out consistently and vigorously for over three months now. Despite exercise and a healthy diet, I haven’t lost a single pound. For the most part, I have been okay with my slow transformation though I still avoid looking at myself in mirrors. I do almost anything to avoid seeing a reflection that…

Numb

I’m cleaning out my inbox. It’s a normal thing for a Monday. I’m clicking through the list, responding to clients and sifting through the junk. I see a message from an app called Marco Polo. Is it an app? I don’t even know. I’ve never heard of it. I get distracted by an email from…

Cheap Seats

“If you’re in the cheap seats, not putting yourself on the line, and just talking about how I can do it better, I am in no way interested in your feedback.” -Brene’ Brown I am interested in courage. I am interested in people who are courageous in their own lives and who value the courage…

Mental Health 101

I can’t sleep. There was a mixup with my meds and I think I inadvertently suffered a huge decrease in my antidepressant. I rely on meds to keep my gnarly postpartum depression in check. Crashing off it is not something I recommend. The worst side effect is the anxiety. I feel constantly churned up by…

Take 3

My cancer anniversary came and went this year and I was, for the most part, too busy to notice. I tried to treat that as a good thing, not wanting to needlessly reopen a heartache that was healing. Instead, I fell ill with the flu and have spent the last four days in bed more…

A Journey in Self-Care

Aloha! I’m visiting Hawaii again (I swear, this is not my life), this time for vacation and celebration with the whole family. Before I left, coach Paul over at Epic told me about how he vacations. He told me he hits his workouts hard while traveling, and always comes back fitter than when he left….