The Indomitable Spirit of Jeff Civillico

Tom and I attended the Helena Chamber’s Big Night Out last night. I was tired after a full day of work and casually told Tom I would rather be punched in the face than find the energy to go to the event. It would hurt less and wouldn’t last so long, I reasoned out loud….

I See Her Everywhere

It has been several weeks since the memorial of my friend. The woman who was like a mother to me. A lovely soul I think about every day, if not several times a day. I’ll be doing something insignificant and a memory will come to me. I think of her in the kitchen, doing the…

The Vulnerable Leap

I went to the event I was scared to go to. I spoke honestly about my fears and concerns. I talked about this different brain I have. I surprised myself by talking about how my heart had changed, too. Somehow, I have been incredibly and deeply blessed in my life. The amazing souls in the…

Gratitude, Grace, Gentleness

There is always a choice to be made. I swear, I want to be lazy and take the easy way out. I want to skip the event I’m afraid to go to. I want ignore the emails and text messages as they pile up. I want let myself snap at my kids rather than patiently…

You Need to Calm Down

This well-written rant came across my timeline. Buckle up, kids. This is going to be fun. I wanted to write something that was not going to insult anyone, or tear anyone down, however I wanted to say how I really feel! The subject I’m referring too is fat shaming! In my opinion AMERICA has gone…

Goodbye Sweet Friend

I said goodbye to a dear, sweet friend today. I’ve cried so hard, I’ve worried another breath wouldn’t find me. This is what it feels like to leave a piece of my heart with someone I love. Her death brought my own painful tearing and ripping apart. Deep, permanent wounds remain. To say she loved…

Train Like A Girl

I showed up to workout today and didn’t realize class had been cancelled. I can’t tell you for sure what I would have done seven months ago in this same situation, but I can tell you what happened today. I dug out an old workout from the whiteboards stacked in a corner. I found something…

Good Company

Dear Friend, It is okay to feel whatever it is you are feeling. You don’t have to be anything. You don’t have to be fixed or better. We are all a bit broken; we all hurt and heal and hurt again. You don’t have to feel bad for feeling bad. You can be grateful for…

Break It Up

This is a breakup letter.  Dear X, I’m done with you. I have relied on you for years and years to help me navigate my life. I’ve believed the lies you’ve told me about myself. I’ve let your opinion outshine my effort, my hard work, my self-worth. You’ve made me cry. You’ve made me crazy….

The Joke’s On Them

I recently saw the video of Beni Bryant singing his guts out on X Factor. I know. It could sound lame, but just listen. This song reminded me to never settle for the middle. It reminded me to pursue the beauty and the passion that is inside all of us. It reminded me to rejoice…