There is always a choice to be made.
I swear, I want to be lazy and take the easy way out. I want to skip the event I’m afraid to go to. I want ignore the emails and text messages as they pile up. I want let myself snap at my kids rather than patiently talk them through another bedtime routine.
It’s a vulnerable thing to admit. The impatient and frazzled side of me is unflattering, I know. I just want to crawl in my bed and sleep until I’m rested and fresh. So, like, 4 or 5 days maybe?
For now though, I am tired and worn out. Even I get bored and uninspired. Doesn’t everyone?
So, what is the choice I have to make? It is somewhere along the arc or self-care and internal resolve. This problem isn’t going to solve itself, but it will get better after I give myself some room to recover.
I’m know I need to focus back on gratitude and on the things that are fixable. I’m going to dial in on what is going well, and give myself grace to figure out the rest. It can be really challenging to be gentle with myself, but that is what I’m being called to do.
Gratitude, grace and gentleness. I can do that. Even when it feels like I can’t, or it is easier not to, I’m going to hold myself to that mantra today, tomorrow and for as many days as I need it.
Give ‘Em Hell