What To Do When Feeling Stressed: A Sample Guide by Katie Mazurek Pick a project. Any project. Throw yourself entirely and completely into said project. It is best if this project also demands considerable time and effort from an unsuspecting participant. (Husbands make excellent assistants! Sure, he might not understand why the 800lb dresser that…

What Have I Done?

For all of my battles, I never really thought much about losing any of them. There was too much adrenaline, I guess. Too much information to absorb and action to take. There comes a point though, were the information slows down. The action slows down. I know this because I’ve watched people I care about,…

No Edits

If you’re reading this, I’ve waited a few days to post it. I couldn’t bear the thought of worrying my mother, or my dad, or Tom without knowing more. So I’m holding on to this by myself until I get through a few more tests. About two weeks ago a felt a lump on my…

To Define

Things are hard and scary for me again. More change. More uncertainty. My old worst friends- fear and doubt- come busting through the door bringing along helpless/hopeless with them.  I am so annoyed by their presence. “You are stealing a perfectly beautiful day,” I think. It’s date night and I want to be happy and…

The Hills

The future is one of the sneaky things cancer steals from you once you are diagnosed. Everything becomes about the present. Things happen quickly. Decisions need to be made fast and without benefit of certainty. Often, your physical body consumes your thoughts. Pain, fatigue, nausea, discomfort- it’s often hard to think about anything else. So…

Who I Am

There is a strange beauty in the awkwardness of learning. I watch my kids do it all day every day. They just aren’t in their heads enough to be self-conscious about the fascinating unfolding that occurs when someone is committed to growth.

Freshy Fresh

PROJECT JOY continues, despite the disappointing political climate, huge unknowns and transitions, loss of a friend to cancer, and somewhat vague medical status. I can’t really say what shifted in my brain (I think it has a lot to do with hope) but I’m definitely holding on to a different mindset than I was a…

Shine On

I was fortunate in that I had the capacity and the opportunity to attend law school. I was even more fortunate that I attended law school in Montana with an amazing group of peers and professors. Our graduating class had around 70 people in it. There wasn’t a single person I saw in the halls…

Project Joy

I have been thinking a lot about where I am in my recovery and my life right now. Things have been really difficult, as I think has been clear in my writing. I have to admit, I’m a little bit embarrassed about that.  Embarrassment comes from shame, I think. I feel somewhat ashamed at how…

Not Today

Some days I want to give up. Like today. The setbacks roll in and I feel silly for even trying. I feel defeated and I feel too tired and hopeless to keep pushing on. I can come up with a thousand reasons why I should let it go, why I should protect my heart and…

Tedx

I had the incredible opportunity to prepare and deliver a Tedx talk in Bozeman in April. As expected, I learned a lot. I had fun. I worked hard. What I wasn’t expecting was how hard the journey to the red circle would push me, what it would reveal about where I was in my life,…

Still Can

After writing my last post about how hard and overwhelming things have been, many many of you have reached out to me to offer support and encouragement. Some of you have even donated to my GoFundMe page, which my dear friend, Beth, lovingly reinvigorated for me. Once again, my Love Army showed up for me….