Cheap Seats

“If you’re in the cheap seats, not putting yourself on the line, and just talking about how I can do it better, I am in no way interested in your feedback.” -Brene’ Brown I am interested in courage. I am interested in people who are courageous in their own lives and who value the courage…

Mental Health 101

I can’t sleep. There was a mixup with my meds and I think I inadvertently suffered a huge decrease in my antidepressant. I rely on meds to keep my gnarly postpartum depression in check. Crashing off it is not something I recommend. The worst side effect is the anxiety. I feel constantly churned up by…

Take 3

My cancer anniversary came and went this year and I was, for the most part, too busy to notice. I tried to treat that as a good thing, not wanting to needlessly reopen a heartache that was healing. Instead, I fell ill with the flu and have spent the last four days in bed more…

A Journey in Self-Care

Aloha! I’m visiting Hawaii again (I swear, this is not my life), this time for vacation and celebration with the whole family. Before I left, coach Paul over at Epic told me about how he vacations. He told me he hits his workouts hard while traveling, and always comes back fitter than when he left….

Mikey T and Me

He has given pieces of himself in our time together, I have taken what he has shared and have made myself whole again.

Today hurt so good. I’m sure you’re getting tired of me posting about workouts, so I’ll be brief. I have gone from having to rest halfway up the staircase and collapsing at the top, sweating, and out of breath, to climbing 1010 stairs in a single workout. I was still exhausted, sweating and out of…

Cry, Baby

I’d like to say that today was the first time I’ve cried during a workout, but that would be a lie. I actually learned early on that it is really hard to run while crying. It takes a level of pulmonary coordination that I just don’t have. But I digress. Today, I got a one-on-one…

Geronimo

There’s this thing that happens as we get older. The doors start to close. The things we once thought might be possible, the people we have known, or worse, the people we have loved, start to fall away from us. In many ways, life begins a cascade of irrevocable changes and shifts that make us…

Wrecked

I honestly wasn’t sure I was going to make it through today’s workout. If it hadn’t been a collective effort- a workout where we all contributed to completing the total number of reps on the board- I think I would have quit. But honestly, pride and the desperation to avoid the shame of dropping out…

Mess

I love my messy house. There are baby toys strewn at odd angles around the living room floor. There is a white wig on the chair. A pair of small, silver shoes is perched on the hutch in the kitchen. Every countertop is littered with plates and food and toys and findings from a recent…