Hurt Someone

I think I hurt someone. I think I made her feel small, or maybe unfairly treated. I think I hurt someone. I think I might have forgotten to say “thank you” or remind her how much she meant to me. I think I hurt someone. I think I forgot in my own well of hurt…

Medicated Kid

We just had a parent-teacher conference and I didn’t cry. That is a huge accomplishment. Let me explain. My oldest, Elle, has pretty severe ADHD. This isn’t a surprise to me because I had undiagnosed ADHD until I hit my second year of law school. In the 80’s, if you didn’t pay attention you got…

I Wasn’t Expecting This

Today I told my story of being raped by a man I knew in college. Today I laid my soul bare to share the story of a moment in my life that has plagued me with feelings of unworthiness, uncleanliness, and of being unlovable. Today I spoke truth. Today was scary. Today was vulnerable. Today…

The Slow Paradigm Shift of Sexual Assault

Do I still have to tell this story? Actually, I’ve never really told anyone except my husband. It’s the story of how I woke up to a man having sex with me when I was in college. But it’s not just my story, it’s the story of millions of women every year who are sexually…

You Did What?

Everyone knows I’m busy. I run a law firm, I write, I try to care for my children and pay attention to my husband. I have a lot of irons in the fire and sometimes I get burned. So why on earth would I take on something else? Passion. Need. Responsibility. I’ve recently decided to…

The Arena

Brene’ Brown has this concept of “the arena.” She famously quotes Theodore Roosevelt in her research when he said this: It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man…

I Could Have Missed This

I could have missed this. Sophie and I laid outside next to the fire as the sun dipped behind the mountains and the stars started to peek out. She regaled me with stories about her friends, and places she’s like to visit, and Pluto. It’s a cold moon, she told me, and nothing lives there….

Fat, Not Stupid

Can I be real a second? I have to tell you what life is like as a fat person. It’s been on my mind and it finally boiled over today when I was reading the comments to a question I had posted on our local “find and refer” Facebook page. My question was this: Do…

I Had A Dream

I had a dream tonight that I attended a wedding… of sorts. Like most dreams, it was a mix of crazy, longing, loving and beautiful. The bride in my dream was the sun that shone over the mountain where I lived when I first moved to Montana. I met and fell in love with Tom…

Three

I have three surgeries left. They have always been on the ‘To Do” list but obviously they had to take a back seat while I gestated a tiny human. Tomorrow I will undergo a full hysterectomy to get rid of pesky pre-cancerous uterine cells. Here are my thoughts on all this. I’m not scared. I…